October 17th, 2011
I’m beginning the weight loss/healthy living journey all over again.
Right now I’m overweight, sedentary and out of breath. Long story short I am miserable in my skin. The person I see in the mirror is not the me I see when I envision myself and my life going forward. My INTENTION is to match up my Vision with Reality.
Instead of trying jump in with both feet and try to change everything overnight. I’m beginning slowly and step by step will gain momentum as these changes become habit. What is most important is to make this a permanent lifestyle change. — Lifestyle change, lifestyle change, lifestyle change, yea, yea I know — I know, blah, blah, blah, I know I’ll get there. Arrrrrrrgggg! I hate this starting over, but I hate being prisoner in my big body more. I know what to do, I did it before and I WILL LOSE even more this time. Then I will actually work at maintenance this time.
Now that I am back to work – Woo-hoo I’m so happy! (I was laid-off for 14 months but I am back at my old job and loving it.) my first steps are to take my breakfast and lunch to work and get my water in everyday. Oh I need a new water bottle (note to self buy water bottle and lunch box containers) I also commit to getting up from my desk and taking walk at least 3 or 4 times during the day.
I’m in the middle of my change of season asthma attack, so my goal for this week is to stay the same and not gain weight while I’m taking this dose pak of steroids. The old me would have planned to begin after I have finished the roids, then there would have been another excuse but not this time. This time I’m starting right here right now.
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February 2nd, 2009
As if this Winter was not long enough the Ground Hog did not see his shadow so I guess there will be six more weeks of winter.
I was getting worse so I went back to the Doctor today and got a shot of steroids. As much as I dislike the steroids I feel so much better already.
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January 31st, 2009
I almost made it all of the way through January without getting sick.
As of yesterday, I was officially sick as a DOG.
In the spirit of finding the silver lining, this is the first time since I was diagnosed with asthma about eight or nine years ago, that I have gotten a chest cold and not have it cause an asthma attack. I just left the doctor’s office, and she confirms that I definitely have whatever cooties’ that is going around but no asthma. A small victory, considering how crappy I feel but it is a big deal to know that the Breathe Deep tea, honey and cayenne pepper are working to keep my airways open. I’d like there to be more healthy remedies and hopefully less traditional medicine. I feel some juicing coming in my future.
I picked up this crap at work. As much as I wash my hands and open doors with paper towel and keep my hands out of my face, I still picked up this cold at work. I found out a little too late that one of my co-workers with a cold used my computer. Ah-ha, my keyboard – now I am going to take some Lysol spray to work and keep my keyboard and mouse disinfected. Geez-Louise one more thing to do. I am going to continue doing everything I can to stay healthy.
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January 28th, 2009
Weigh-in: 262.8
Looking on the bright side of things I am moving in the right direction. I am just not feeling that motivated. Okay that is not exactly true, I am very motivated mentally, but physically I just don’t have the energy to be motivated to walk or exercise.
Boo-hoo-hoo, cry me a river — yea, I bore myself. I’m just going to keep working it until I look up one day and wham I weigh 198. Like Nike says “Just do it!”
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January 27th, 2009
Today was just an ordinary day.
Made breakfast and lunch for my Mother and myself. A homemade Tomato & Brown Rice Soup and a Banana for breakfast, an odd combination but it worked for me today. I packed an apple and orange for snacks, and for lunch I packed red beans & rice, kale and about 3 oz. of beef roast.
Drove to work, I took I-75 instead of US-10 big mistake it added at least 5-10 minutes to my drive. I listened to an audio book “Night Train to Memphis” a murder mystery, of course. It is a book on tape so I can only listen to it in the car or at home. Though, I don’t listen to audio books at home very often. I got to the parking structure about 9:05 and waited 15+ for the shuttle bus. I signed it at 9:29
Worked on the Cities Web site all day, my list is really long and I swear every time I check off one task I have to add two more. All things considered; it was a VERY productive today.
I listen to a different audio book in the office it helps me to tune out all of the ambient office noise and focus on my work. I used to listen to one book, moving it from the car to the office and back. That got tedious so now I have a book in each place. I’m listening to the 6th Target a Women’s Murder Club Novel by James Patterson. I’m into mysteries right now.
I drank lots of Breathe Deep tea with cayenne pepper and honey. It was fairly helpful in opening up my chest.
At the end of the day, I logged out and did the whole shuttle bus thing again. I have to say my book is getting really good so I took the long way home.
Then it was Dinner. Blog. Bath. Bed.
Often, average days go unnoticed they just become a monotonous blur one day melding into the other. As ordinary as today was I had a little skip in my step and a little song humming in my heart all day long. I enjoyed today, and I just need to say that there is a lot of joy to be found in ordinary days if we are looking for it.
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January 25th, 2009
When I made my list the other day of the basic things, I needed to do to start losing weight; I left off a few very important things. Planning, Shopping, Chopping and Cooking, all essential and very time-consuming. It is not so bad once the pantry is suitably restocked, and I get in the rhythm.
Revised Basics List:
- Journaling
- Eating breakfast
- Eat before I get hungry
- Portion Control
- Drinking Water
- Walking
- Planning
- Shopping
- Chopping
- Cooking
- Consistency
Add to all of the planning and cooking drudgery is the fact that I feel like crap. I just want to curl up and eat comfort food and watch TV until spring. Because I feel so lousy, I have not been walking or exercising either. Although this does not seem to be the opportune time to start losing weight, I’d rather start now rather than later. I’ll just keep crawling though the process until I can walk and eventually run through.
Usually, I can feel it when I have begun to lose weight, and I am not feeling it all so I am just hoping to stay the same on weigh in day.
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January 22nd, 2009
I just had to weigh myself again today 262.7 I knew it was water, a whole lot of water, 3.9 lbs. of water. It is not weigh in day, but I HAD to do it. I feel much better now.
The cookies were calling to me last night. I was stressing about some things and through the dark of the night I could hear the kind and friendly voice of the cookies calling to me. The cookies were down stairs in the kitchen, I heard the little voice calling to me but I was sleepy so I ignored them and dozed off. Just know if those cookies had been in my room I would have been all over them.
I’m at home sick for the second day so not walking or exercise for me but I will work on my journal.
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January 21st, 2009
Weigh-in: 266.6
I’m starting here heading for 198 lbs. one day at a time. A cliché perhaps, but some clichés are just so appropriate.
A 10% weight loss would be 26 lbs. so my 1st milestone will be 240.6.
Yesterday, while I was showing my co-worker the digital camera that I got for Christmas and he took two pictures of me. When I looked at them I was horrified. My face looked swollen and puffy, it’s that time of the month and I am holding water, but that is not it I can see all of the weight I’ve gained in my face. I quickly deleted the photos, but I’m sorry that I did. Now I’m thinking I should have posted one of them so I can see my progress.
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January 20th, 2009
President Barack Obama! It was amazing the way I felt watching the swearing in on TV, you could feel the energy of the 2 Million people that were present to witness that historic moment . I can only imagine what it must have been like to be there.
Back to the Basics
I’m starting over. I feel like a failure right now but I know that the only failure would be to give up.
I’m starting with the things that were successful for me before:
- Journaling
- Eating breakfast
- Never allowing myself to get hungry
- Portion Control
- Drinking Water
- Walking (every little bit helps)
- Consistency
I can do this. Better yet, I am doing this. I’ve started my journal. It is a combination food diary/journal, I’m keeping track of food, vitamins, water, mood, exercise and any everything.
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January 19th, 2009
Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. Holiday is today and, President elect Obama declared this a day of service. He encourages us all to give back to our communities by serving. After going through the list of all the reasons why I am too busy to volunteer for anything! (I am really busy a little overwhelmed in fact, but we all are.) So, I’ve started thinking of ways to volunteer; I’ll keep you posted.
What is the pay off? What is my real motivation for losing weight?
More than anything I want to be healthy. I want to feel good more often than not. I want to feel good about the way I look and the way my clothes fit. I just want to feel comfortable in my skin.
At the moment, I don’t feel very good about myself at all. I feel fat, I am uncomfortable, when I move around I feel ungainly instead of graceful. I feel like a loser (how ironic) since I’ve actually gained all of the weight back.
I’m starting over, I have to — when I’m not working on, thinking about, or planning to loose weight, I GAIN. So I’ve GOT to DO things differently.
What do I want? I want to wear high heels again, want a Kick Ass wardrobe, and I want to weigh less than 200 lbs.
Less than 200 lbs. that is my first big milestone – five pounds at a time, 198 here I come.
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